BEING KAREN

Life is strange, and not all surprises are good ones. I am thinking about this day a year ago, which turned out to be not a good surprise. And then my thinking took me down a path of why we measure pain and recovering from said pain in time? (Or indeed any experience.) Why this need to say how long it takes? How many creatures lived out their full life span in the last year. How many didn't, having 2 months instead of their allotted 3? How many people have endured days that f

I wrote this in 2019, it appeared in my Facebook memories this morning, strangely prophetic now ... It’s all widdershins. Don’t speak to me of retrogrades, a moment, a passing by in the sky of the malign and mischievous. No. The world is turning the wrong way. And everything that was solid is now made of glass. Brittle, shiny and treacherous. Dazzling mirrors of danger, and stage left when you are holding everything in your right. The little gods are quiet, burrowing deep, th

Things done in private. Stare at the crone in the mirror, wonder how that wild white hair multiplies so, no idea. Eat toast for dinner, chocolate for breakfast. Dance. Try on lipsticks I no longer wear. Ignore the phone and watch the same movie over and over. Paint. Build piles of books around my home, oases. Yes oases. Sob, weep and wail, attempt to put my heart back together, the gold won’t stick. Kintsugi is a lie. Write, delete, write again. Laugh at m